This week, I discovered that the breast cancer that I thought had been put to rest, has returned. It’s in the bones, specifically the lumbar 5 vertebrae and the pelvis. It’s in the bones that have recently taken me on a whirl wind book, radio, tv, and speaking tour. A tour that is blessing thousands. It’s in the bones that helped me carry three boys to term and break world records. The bones that are right now scheduled to compete at the Age-Group Triathlon and Aquation World Championships in Cozumel Mexico this September 2016.
I refer to the cancer as “It”, not “My” or “Mine” because it is not mine. I do not own this. It’s a foreign invader. God did not give me cancer. In fact, He is roaring on my behalf. God is fighting my battles as I type. He took me through the fire before and He will take me through it again. Everything will be used for His glory.
I love this bible verse:
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.
I did not get to this place of trust without prayer and support from thousands of people. In fact when I first heard the word “Cancer” again, I thought for a moment that Gods love was failing me, that I didn’t have the energy to face the monster again and how nice it would be to take one last breath on earth and the next breath in heaven. But God didn’t want me to stay defeated. He sent angles in the form of friends, prayer warriors and blessing through the ethers. The tears that streamed down my face turned into gems of love, hope, and victory. I felt God telling me that my journey was far from over, in fact, it was just beginning. He is not finished with me yet. I have far too many people to reach; far too many people to shower with hope.
This journey is not easy. Much has been stripped away. Running, my greatest joy, is impossible. Biking is out of the question. I can no longer sit, bend forward and dressing is difficult. It’s spring and I long to be outside,training, sweating, praising. So many things that I took for granted. How I wish I could have them all back.
I begin radiation, shots in the butt and chemo on Tuesday, May 31st. God will be there. I pray that they are able to get rid of the tumor in the lumbar spine and that the bone grows back stronger than ever before. I will not be defeated. And with Gods help and yours, my story will go world wide, inspiring nations. Perhaps I will even stand on the start line wearing my team USA uniform at the World Championships in September. Anything is possible.